If you would have asked me where I’d be and what I’d be doing 10 years ago, I would have never imagined it this way. For years I kept Jesus in the background. I sort of kept Him at a distance while dabbling in the world and my own desires. I called myself a Christian, but never truly understood the importance and responsibility of it. I wouldn’t have believed it at the time, but God was always watching over me, He was always by my side. My pride, my control, and selfish desires kept Him in the background for much too long. I only inquired and asked Him questions when I really needed something or was in a tough season, and I did so thinking I could manipulate Him into giving me what I wanted. When my life turned upside down and I didn’t get what I wanted I was confused. I had so many questions, I wondered where my life was headed and what my purpose was I wondered if I would ever find joy and peace. I inquired of the Lord and asked Him to reveal His plan and His purpose in my life. The answer did not come overnight, in fact, it took time, it involved faith-filled focus and prayer and devotion to His Word. It involved change; pruning away at dead things and things holding me back from fully experiencing the Spirit-filled, joy-filled life.
Looking back I can see God’s protection and hand in it all. He chose me before I chose Him. Today, I feel more freedom, joy, and confidence than I ever felt, and I owe that all to the Lord. He taught me so much about who I am in Him. He proved to me how much He loved me by patiently waiting for me, allowing me to make mistakes. I still have dreams, prayers, and desires, but now I lay them all down at His feet and trust that He has already prepared something beyond what I could imagine. Let me encourage you today, if you identify as a Christian, Jesus should never be in the background. He will never push His way into your life, but He’s always there when you’re ready to move Him to the front of the line, where He deserves to be. Jesus will change your life. Don’t give up, don’t let the world swallow you up and spit you out. Jesus will set your life back in order, the way He designed it to be. He will give you purpose and He will give you direction. Will you surrender your life and your plans to Him?
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